So its been so long since my last update I guess I just haven't felt up to it. Life is busy and when its not I hate to admit it but I think I've struggled with a little depression.Things get to me some times... This disease gets to me sometimes... I struggle everyday with what Landen is missing and all that will come. There isn't a day that goes by when I don't find myself muttering the same prayer, the prayer where I ask the Lord to help my son grow and learn and please please don't take him from me! I guess in ways he does answer Landen is growing, he's learning little by little but in the end I still fear what is to come. Its hard watching your 20 month old accomplish tasks that his older brother will never be able to do. I really haven't felt much like anything let alone sitting down and updating my blog. I feel like I've been strangely absent from Facebook even spending time online reading about my PBD family. Its not that I don't take interest in them or I forget about them, the truth is they are always in my thoughts and prayers, its just that the stress of everything in my life was weighing me down. I've come to realize that I have had a bad attitude. Mostly as selfish attitude and as we always learn in church the best way to make your life better and bring the Spirit into your life is by serving and focusing on others. I don't have some grand service project planned or anything like that (although it wouldn't be a bad idea) But I have been trying to focus more on my family, my kids and my husband. Making time to be with them and make them fill special even if I spend most of my time running here an there trying to catch up on all that needs to be done. I'm still struggling with the bad attitude here and there but I'm now seeing the light again and I'm up moving and feeling much like myself again. Not much has happened medical wise but a lot has happened family wise! So I've decided to catch everyone up with pictures! My last update was mid-October when we were preparing for Halloween so we will start there :D
October
This was our church's trunk-or-treat we went before we left for Utah so that Daddy could spend some Halloween time with the boys
Halloween:
After celebrating with Scott we headed to Utah... We spent Halloween day at my sisters house with our family!!!
November
After Halloween we stuck around in Utah to spend some time with my brother before the Army sent him far far away to Germany....
Three of my new favorite pictures!
Thanksgiving:
we had Thanksgiving early so we could celebrate all together Scott even flew in for the weekend!
Andy
Victoria and Brayden
Turkey Coma
Everyone was sooo hungry they would eat anything!!!
Dog pile!
Visiting:
There are so many people for us to see when we visit Utah
my friend Heather at her book-signing
My brothers and their new daughters
This is my brother who is now in Germany with is wife
Scott's Grandma Danielson
Heather again with Landen
My brother Isaac with Brayden
Eating lunch at the rest stop on the way home
When I got back from Utah Scott and I went on a cruise to Mexico... Just the two of us! It was so much fun!!!
December
December was a time for us to just be home after so much traveling...
Believe it or not Brayden perfected the use of a fork this month ;)
Visit with Santa:
Christmas with Grandma and Grandpa Sinex
Christmas Day!!!
The boys got new PJ's, quilts and story books...
Landen's walker all decorated :)
January 2012
Brayden got his first haircut! Landen also got one! MY BOYS ARE SO HANDSOME!!!
Found a nice day to go to the park and had lots of fun!
This month we got a new ball pit the old one was getting too small! Even Daddy can play in the new one :D
Love all the pictures looks like Landen is doing great! Thanks for the update. Just an FYI - I send up a very similar prayer each night too :)
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs from your friends in Illinois.
Pamela Marshall